#yoakkemae         a private ,  selective ,  and headcanon - based portrayal of     kanda yū    .    open to plots.

                           . . .      yoakkemae

            satan.        |                    circa. 2014.

   a deep dive into         what it means to be human , how heavy the weight of one life is on one's shoulders , and the rage that comes from being torn apart and put back together again.


   disclaimer     i do not own d.gray-man .

            satan.        |                    they/them.        |                    28.

   activity         active muse.
   accepting         starters, memes, plots.

guidelines ,

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law one ,

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aggression.      kanda is not a soft person. if a character annoys him enough, he can and will snap and try to kill a character. he is incredibly strong, so please don't push him or accept the consequences. also, do not call him yū.

law two ,

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no yullen.      due to incredibly bad experiences with the ship in the past, i do not write it romantically. this does not mean that i don't write with allen walkers! i love to write with allens, but their relationship will remain platonic.

relations ,

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 ꕤ     character study.

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character ,

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   name       kanda yū.
   age       physically, he is nineteen-twenty. chronologically, he is nine-ten. however, his first life was born fifty-nine to sixty years ago (died at twenty, spent thirty years dead, revived nine-ten years ago).
   dob       june 6th.
   pronouns       he/him.
   gender       cis-male.
   orientation       bisexual.
   species       artificial human.
   occupation       exorcist with the black order.
   location       the london headquarters / none, currently travelling around the world.
   nationality       english.
   ethnicity       japanese.
   family       none. he was created in a laboratory.
   known languages       english, german, japanese, and mandarin chinese (fluently). french (conversational). in his kpop-idol au , he replaces korean with german between those languages. in his god-of-war au , obviously he speaks every language.
   notable skills       master swordsman, master martial artists.

   build       lithe but muscular.
   hair colour       black.
   hair style       straight and usually tied up.
   eye colour       grey.
   wardrobe       usually wears his exorcist uniform. on any downtime, he tends to favour muscle shirts and loose pants.
   tattoos       the seal that controls regenerative abilities is on his chest, and as time has gone on and he has used up more and more of his regeneration, the tattoo has grown black tendrils across his body.
mind often stoic and emotionless kanda appears unflappable and cold to other people but has a quick temper that flares easily and often turns murderous due to annoyance of people and rage in his soul. cares little for the sanctity of life , believing people to be expandable , a notion that is hypocritical considering he saves others ; although , complains as he does it. still he does not mind killing.

   height       181cm.
   weight       64kg.
skills due to the nature of his existence , when he dies he comes back to life and heals from wounds quickly. there is a limit of the amount of times he can come back. as someone created , he is gifted with unnatural speed and strength, able to cross the length of a room within a few seconds and carry or throw anyone of any size. strangely , he’s also able to read the auras and emotions of other people, using that to detect , mostly, negative emotions and people attempting to sneak up on him. he’s not sure where this ability came from , whether or not it was given to him or was remnants from his past. his sword sings as he wields it , an artist with his own version of a paintbrush , painting pictures of death and blood. he is a skilled warrior with the sword and there are little that can match his might in combat.

he was created in a laboratory with one other , alma karma , and was forced through painful procedures to resonate with the innocence that often killed him and made his body fall apart.still he lived in this existence until ghosts started to haunt him , showing dreams of a world he had not seen , causing pain. this was what the scientists feared the most and so he had to be put on ice because he was broken but alma would not let this happen and managed to discover the truth of their existence and broke as kanda , who saw his death , was put to sleep after suffering unimaginable pain.so filled with longing was he that he awoke from his eternal slumber to the innocence that always denied him , asking him to be used. despite the hatred that he felt , he became its wielder for the war that he was created to fight in again. still he decided to forgo the war and just run away with alma to where they could not be found. along the way , he ends up saving noise marie from the same experiment that doomed him.he found alma surrounded by the bodies of the scientists that had trapped them in the dark world of pain and misery. then alma attempted to kill him in order to free them. alas , kanda was bolstered by the images of her in his mind , filled with a need to find her again and slain alma , cutting him down with mugen again and again until he could heal no longer.he became a student of general tiedoll with noise marie and daisya barry , travelling the world and slaying 悪魔。 now an exorcist for several years , he is the only one that has killed a noah and has long since reached the critical point of synchronisation and has risen to become a general.


portrayal ,

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 ☆     miscellaneous headcanons.
 ☆     first year outside the lab.
 ☆     his birthday.

canon ,

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               canon verse.                       *


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takes place throughout the timeline; pre-series, series, post-series.

alternative ,

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               canon verse.                       *


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birth name: kanda yū 『神田ユウ』
stage name: yeonkkoch 『연꽃』 when he makes his solo-debut , he changes his name to " kanda ".
nickname: grump , bakanda.
occupation: dancer , singer , model.
birthday: june 6th , 1991.
family: father , two brothers. (adopted).
position: main dancer. after his solo debut , he also becomes a lead vocalist.
height: 181 cm.
blood: ab.
training: since 2006. debuted in 2008.
talents: dancing , martial arts / sword fighting , playing the guitar and violin , speaking japanese , chinese , korean , english , and french.
yeonkkoch 『연꽃』 is a japan-born kpop star in the multinational kpop group: the black exorcists , whom debuted in 2008. he was discovered on the street due to his good looks , and while he had originally declined the offer for becoming a star , the man who adopted yeonkkoch accepted on his behalf , and yeonkkoch was then forced to train in dancing , singing , languages , etiquette , how to talk during interviews , etc. (not that any of the latter really stuck in his head).he was already a rather talented dancer , fluid and smooth and strong due to several years of martial arts and sword fighting , and due to his father’s interest in the arts , yeonkkoch could already play the guitar and the violin. however, his singing voice wasn't the greatest , but he has a low, gravelly voice that could be used as great contrast for some of the other members.he continues to have a rather rude and dour disposition , so the company begged him to hide it behind silence during interviews and concerts , which Kanda accepted , as he dislikes speaking. however , with his good looks and a “mysterious” quality that comes from rarely speaking on interviews , he amassed quite the number of fans , which surprises pretty much everyone who knows yeonkkoch personally (and even surprises him ; although, he’ll never admit it).he doesn’t really like his bandmates , especially allen or lavi , but he can usually drive out his aggression through his study in martial arts and sword fighting or through meditation ; although , now he finds dancing aggressively rather soothing as well. he gets along just fine with lenalee , who is the only female of the group.in 2014 , kanda changed his stage name to his last name and made his solo debut and began to do solo work in korea , japan , and china. he did end up training to make his voice better and richer. thus , his better voice in combination with his dance skills made him a solo artist to be feared , and while he is technically still a part of the black exorcists , he doesn’t end up seeing them as much as he used to (which helps with his patience in regards to them when he does see them).

               canon verse.                       *


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WAR IS CRUELTY, AND NONE CAN MAKE IT GENTLE.the god of war – the only god of war – he is worshipped by many different names throughout countries & cultures alike: ares , anhur , jiutian xuannü , odin , hachiman ; you name a god (or goddess) of war , it has been him all along.he is war , perfected in all arts and styles of fighting and war waging , his power grows as more blood is shed and as humans die by the hundreds (thousands , millions). he does not have to breed contempt in humans , he does not have to start wars – no , the humans do all of the work for him.he is the greatest warrior that has ever walked the earth , and none can best him in battle unless he lets them. he is victory , he is death , he is cruel , and he is WAR.